I'm happy to report that as of yesterday my step dad, Larry, is showing signs of improvement. This last week has been scary, I hope we can all get back on our feet again. It's one of those lessons that teaches you to be grateful for good health. I haven't talked to my mom today but I hope he continues to do a little better every day. I was terribly depressed in my last post, part of me thinks I shouldn't post feelings like that, maybe a little too dark. Maybe I should try to remain happy-go-lucky on these online forums/blogs/etc. They've been a source of anxiety at times and I need to back off facebook right now, it really creeps me out sometimes. I think I tend to worry enough in general, without adding stress from silly social networks. Too much some days, just toooo much. I did want to get back to this blog though because A. I don't think anyone reads it anyway! plus it feels like a private corner of existence to which I can let my fingers go. B. My last post was so depressing I wanted to bring some good news on a new day. C. I've been wasting so much time today, it's a new personal record for me and definitely worth noting!

Yes, I can hardly believe it's 2pm and all I've done is email my professor about how I can't turn in a paper that's due tomorrow because his directions on the syllabus are completely different than current APA formatting. By the way, APA is psychotic and definitely a candidate of induced neurosis. It makes me crazy. So now I can't begin my next research paper until I finish this one and I can't finish this one until the prof tells me how to trick-up some half breed APA formatting.

Since I woke up today I've considered lifting weights, writing a new paper, doing all the productive things I should - but I then decided to update my iPod on my iPhone which consisted of me going through several thousands of tracks on my PC's music library for just the right blend. It took me 2+ hours to create a playlist. Meanwhile I'm not at the gym, I'm not doing my paper, I'm not doing anything. I didn't even want to get up to pee because I'm zoning out so hard on the playlist that my bladder suddenly ceased to exist. This isn't even procrastination, it's spacing out on an astral level. Hahaha, I will eventually get to work. Or will I???

...one thing is for sure. I t will only be when my music has finished uploading.